Forgiveness is to take responsibility in the idea that you can move forward and that your actions there onward will not be affected by said forgiven persons/things/circumstances.
I also believe it’s important to forgive yourself. If you cannot come to terms with your mistakes, you will never acknowledge how to move forward.
I don’t like to regret things. And the interesting part is when you come to realize that you ACTUALLY regret something. That, with time, this regret uncovered itself. This regret didn’t have immediate circumstances with an immediate lesson- but a slow germination and permanent ending. That there is literally nothing you can do other than change the way you perceive it.
I plan on forgiving myself. I just don’t know how. I don’t how to confront this problem. It’s the first time I’ve dealt with something that held such breadth. Such… wholeness.
I guess I’ll just hold my breath until I await the eventual result and outcome…
I don’t understand much and I know nothing. All is see is through my two eyes and what my brain allows me to perceive. But my knowledge is infinite and my exploration of it all- never ending.
I often find myself not wanting to be where I am at a given moment. Wanting to be somewhere else. And the moments I live for the most are when I am alone; exploring. I have an intrinsic wanderlust I’ve had since childhood. Maybe I learned it from my father. Or maybe I just always knew there was more out there.
I don’t like to feel boxed in. I don’t like to feel finite. I know I’m mortal, but my spirit is much more than it’s physical manifestations.
I want my mother’s blessing when I take on the world and discover it’s physical planes. I want my father’s wisdom when I seek clarity upon Earth’s ways. But mostly, I want God’s blessings as I travel his universe.
I want forgiveness for my sins. I want encouragement for my journeys. I seek unconditional love- from myself.
I seek to let go of my past. I seek stepping into love. Stepping into my future. And possibly stepping into myself along the way.
Really take a look at your past and acknowledge all you’ve overcome- all you’ve been through. If you have risen through those painful times triumphantly, imagine in what else you will prove your excellence and great strength?
You are strong.
You are courageous.
You are resilient.
But most of all, you’ve come so far. And it’s time you give yourself a pat on the back.
Instead of writing down goals on how you want to do things and how you want to be treated by others, write down personal goals that reflect how you want to treat others and what you want to be able to offer as a person.